Because our God is, well, God, sometimes when I stop and think about certain aspects of his nature, I am in awe. I can’t think how else to describe my feelings, but I’ll try to explain what I mean.
Recently I was at a meeting where everyone spent time in a “concert of prayer.” This meant that everyone — and there must have been nearly 150 people in the room — began to pray out loud at the same time. I have to tell you, it was not the most productive of prayer times for me. Nor was it for a friend sitting beside me. We both found it extremely difficult to concentrate on anything with all that noise. I think we both ended up plugging our ears in an attempt to pray without being utterly distracted. Now, realize that God hears the thoughts and prayers of everyone. In the world! All at the same time. And he not only listens but speaks to each one of us, answering our prayers … All I can say is, wow.
The Bible says he “was and is and is to come.” The idea that he will be forever isn’t quite so mind-boggling for me right now, but to think that he had no beginning … that just hurts my head to imagine. How can someone not have had a beginning? Do you realize, then, how long he was before he created even the angels? Even if he created them a bazillion years before he made people, the answer to that question would be: An infinite amount of time. I find that almost frightening. I was thinking about this the other day and realizing that he was without (or before) his creation as long as he’ll be with his saints in heaven, but even then I can’t get my mind around it.
But I believe it because a) the Bible says it’s so, and b) because that’s just so like God — beyond my wildest imaginings.
I’ve known the Lord in a personal way since I was young and I have to say that I’ve gotten used to knowing such things about our awesome God. I could tell you that he is omnipresent, omniscient, and omnipotent and just move on with the conversation. However, it’s one thing to “know” something and a whole other thing to meditate on it and be awed by his character.
One thing God has used to make himself more real and relevant to me in recent years is motherhood. When I try to explain who God is to my children it makes me realize anew how awesome he is. I want my girls to know him, not just in passing, but to be struck by the awe of his reality.
I love the final verse of Amazing Grace that says, “When we’ve been there ten thousand years, bright shining as the sun, we’ve no less days to sing God’s praise than when we’ve first begun.” Amazing.